Who cares if you disagree
You are not me
who made you king of anything?....song im listening to at the moment :) listening to it kinda makes me feel uplifted and carefree...
-sigh-... a lot has been happening since the last post, both internally and externally. so much goes on in my head. my head keeps blowing up, and i need someone to deflate it. i think a lot about what the future has in store for me. sometimes, i just want to see a glimpse of who im gonna be and what will happen. i worry so much..about my friendships, relationships, etc. im scared of losing people and wish that some things could stay the same forever. But that's just a fantasy that many of us know that won't be a reality. honestly, im just like whatever right now. i don't have a certain direction. i wonder the whereabouts of God in my life and wish i could have a real relationship with Him. i wish life could pause... so i could reassemble my life and fast forward so i could get outta this house.
i wish i could look into people's heads and see what they actually think of me as a person. many people tend to conceal their true thoughts and feelings, and it leads to misconceptions. i wonder if they think..im annoying, stoopid, whatever...no good? the saying goes like "just be yourself" but it's kinda hard to. sometimes i dont even know who "myself" is. what is a true identity? some go through many masks. i want to get close to some people, let them know i truly care and love them, but they just push me away... it's kinda frustrating :/ i believe that the more you let people into your life and shoes, the more they'll open up and let you into their life.just a peek at what goes on in my head.
AHHH im frustrated. i got 3 freaking B's....i fail, according to my parents. i fear about the consequences. my dad already took away my laptop and completely sabotaged my room. my favorite lamp and boat kit are now destroyed;gone :( (not the boat kit completely though :3) -sigh- someone seriously needs to bonk me in the head. and UGH this website confuses me and is kinda not user friendly..or maybe cuz im not blog savvy... :p ill make my blog look better..dont worry ;)I still believe in summer days
the seasons always change
and life will find a way
I'll be your harvester of light
and send it out tonight
So we can start it again.
Is love alive...?
amen. btw you're really ASIAN!
ReplyDeletehow is that asian...?
ReplyDeleteBSIAN!!!
ReplyDeleteHaha. jkjk >.<;
I love the blog changes ^^
ReplyDeleteand i know ALMOST exactly what you are going through (no one has the same experiences, right? but im pretty sure i have the same feelings >< haha did you see my last post? ;P)
i remember how my dad was like when i got b's too...total chaos TT__TT i feel for you
and just so you know it hasn't happened yet but if you ever annoyed me or made me mad, I'D STILL LOVE YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE, NO MATTER WHAT. I'LL ALWAYS BE HERE... even, sometimes when you dont want me to. hehe
Dang!! you guys parents need to chillax a bit >.>;;
ReplyDeleteChinese parents. What can you do? :/
ReplyDeleteSushi-true dat..imma BASIAN >:)
ReplyDeleteMei han- thanks!=D no one has the same exact experiences but we can feel for each other. I L<3ve you girl :) ill be here for you anytime.
Tommy-Pleaseee tell them that!! ><
Aw, don't worry. All or most asians go through the "WHY DON'T CHU GET A++?!" thing. Foreals, it sucks.
ReplyDeleteoh and i totally agree with the first part of your post. I wish we could read minds. >.<
deep
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