Wishes and Blisses of the holiday season!!

Wow!! seriously, i can't believe Thanksgiving is gonna be here in like 11 days!! (if i'm counting correcting..me and my math-eesh!) i'm super duper uber siked bout seeing relatives and eating, of course ;) hmm-turkey, mashed potatoes and gravy, pumpkin pie...i should probs stop before i end up eating the computer screen out of sheer hunger...omnomnom xD AHHHH jdfkasdfskd school is going by slow, but the seasons are sure not =p strange huh? this school year is a slow one for sure.
Soos i was strolling around target today looking for materials for a gift im gonna make, and i came across aisles with all kinds of stationary. i also saw picture frames and all kinds of decorating goodies for the perfect room makeover. i REALLY want to do a makeover on my room. like an extreme one. Man, i can't tell you how happy i was walking through those aisles. i was kinda in my own little alice wonderland =] so many possibilities..with so little money T_T SO you know what to give me for Christmas ;] i mean, you don't have to, but uh..lol JK! yeah but redoing my room is a definite goal. anyone want to help? xD 
and DAng!! there's already Christmas decorations and all that jazz in the stores already :0 makes me soo happy :3 i cant wait to go Christmas shopping for friends and the fam!! I love Christmas. ugh :) more than anything..i love the feel of the holiday season =D it gives me this warm, fuzzy contentment in my heart. aha so cheesy, but it's truee! I try to share the holiday spirit :) no one should be grumpy. well, i could ramble on for years about how i feel so imma stop xD

peace out home daWgs!<3

Is Love Alive...?

Who cares if you disagree

You are not me

who made you king of anything?
....song im listening to at the moment :) listening to it kinda makes me feel uplifted and carefree...

-sigh-... a lot has been happening since the last post, both internally and externally. so much goes on in my head. my head keeps blowing up, and i need someone to deflate it. i think a lot about what the future has in store for me. sometimes, i just want to see a glimpse of who im gonna be and what will happen. i worry so much..about my friendships, relationships, etc. im scared of losing people and wish that some things could stay the same forever. But that's just a fantasy that many of us know that won't be a reality. honestly, im just like whatever right now. i don't have a certain direction. i wonder the whereabouts of God in my life and wish i could have a real relationship with Him. i wish life could pause... so i could reassemble my life and fast forward so i could get outta this house. 

i wish i could look into people's heads and see what they actually think of me as a person. many people tend to conceal their true thoughts and feelings, and it leads to misconceptions. i wonder if they think..im annoying, stoopid, whatever...no good? the saying goes like "just be yourself" but it's kinda hard to. sometimes i dont even know who "myself" is. what is a true identity? some go through many masks. i want to get close to some people, let them know i truly care and love them, but they just push me away... it's kinda frustrating :/ i believe that the more you let people into your life and shoes, the more they'll open up and let you into their life.

just a peek at what goes on in my head.

AHHH im frustrated. i got 3 freaking B's....i fail, according to my parents. i fear about the consequences. my dad already took away my laptop and completely sabotaged my room. my favorite lamp and boat kit are now destroyed;gone :( (not the boat kit completely though :3) -sigh- someone seriously needs to bonk me in the head.  and UGH this website confuses me and is kinda not user friendly..or maybe cuz im not blog savvy... :p ill make my blog look better..dont worry ;)

I still believe in summer days
the seasons always change
and life will find a way
I'll be your harvester of light
and send it out tonight
So we can start it again.
Is love alive...?