Winter Song

This is my winter song to you 

the storm is coming soon

it rolls in from the sea

my love is a beacon in the night

my words will be your light

to carry you to me~

December already? its a good and bad thing..i kinda dont want this year to end-it has been an exciting year for me :) so many cool things have happened since the summer, and i really can't wait for what else God has planned for good ole me xD its good bc i want to fast forward to my graduation ahaha.
november went by quicker than i thought it would :P i miss my thanksgiving food :( Lol. im soo hungry atm. but then again, when am i not?? this year, i didnt do hardcore black friday shopping like i did last year, but thats okay since all the sales were poopy T_T i got nice boots though!! they're uber comfy! :D i want to put a picture up of them, but im too lazy X__x heh

Ah!! i seriously need to get crackin on christmas shopping for frens and the fam!! everyone is like done and i havent even started yet =.= watch me scrambling in the stores on christmas eve.... having a nervous breakdown lol. oh garsh "__"

bleghhh i feel like eating hot chocolateeeee :P er drink it. whatever. ahhhhhhhhhhhh asjdfkshdflksdf its like really late so im crazy and rambling and idk what im doing up... im not even tired. i should be! lol ugh. 

Goood night <3

Wishes and Blisses of the holiday season!!

Wow!! seriously, i can't believe Thanksgiving is gonna be here in like 11 days!! (if i'm counting correcting..me and my math-eesh!) i'm super duper uber siked bout seeing relatives and eating, of course ;) hmm-turkey, mashed potatoes and gravy, pumpkin pie...i should probs stop before i end up eating the computer screen out of sheer hunger...omnomnom xD AHHHH jdfkasdfskd school is going by slow, but the seasons are sure not =p strange huh? this school year is a slow one for sure.
Soos i was strolling around target today looking for materials for a gift im gonna make, and i came across aisles with all kinds of stationary. i also saw picture frames and all kinds of decorating goodies for the perfect room makeover. i REALLY want to do a makeover on my room. like an extreme one. Man, i can't tell you how happy i was walking through those aisles. i was kinda in my own little alice wonderland =] so many possibilities..with so little money T_T SO you know what to give me for Christmas ;] i mean, you don't have to, but uh..lol JK! yeah but redoing my room is a definite goal. anyone want to help? xD 
and DAng!! there's already Christmas decorations and all that jazz in the stores already :0 makes me soo happy :3 i cant wait to go Christmas shopping for friends and the fam!! I love Christmas. ugh :) more than anything..i love the feel of the holiday season =D it gives me this warm, fuzzy contentment in my heart. aha so cheesy, but it's truee! I try to share the holiday spirit :) no one should be grumpy. well, i could ramble on for years about how i feel so imma stop xD

peace out home daWgs!<3

Is Love Alive...?

Who cares if you disagree

You are not me

who made you king of anything?
....song im listening to at the moment :) listening to it kinda makes me feel uplifted and carefree...

-sigh-... a lot has been happening since the last post, both internally and externally. so much goes on in my head. my head keeps blowing up, and i need someone to deflate it. i think a lot about what the future has in store for me. sometimes, i just want to see a glimpse of who im gonna be and what will happen. i worry so much..about my friendships, relationships, etc. im scared of losing people and wish that some things could stay the same forever. But that's just a fantasy that many of us know that won't be a reality. honestly, im just like whatever right now. i don't have a certain direction. i wonder the whereabouts of God in my life and wish i could have a real relationship with Him. i wish life could pause... so i could reassemble my life and fast forward so i could get outta this house. 

i wish i could look into people's heads and see what they actually think of me as a person. many people tend to conceal their true thoughts and feelings, and it leads to misconceptions. i wonder if they think..im annoying, stoopid, whatever...no good? the saying goes like "just be yourself" but it's kinda hard to. sometimes i dont even know who "myself" is. what is a true identity? some go through many masks. i want to get close to some people, let them know i truly care and love them, but they just push me away... it's kinda frustrating :/ i believe that the more you let people into your life and shoes, the more they'll open up and let you into their life.

just a peek at what goes on in my head.

AHHH im frustrated. i got 3 freaking B's....i fail, according to my parents. i fear about the consequences. my dad already took away my laptop and completely sabotaged my room. my favorite lamp and boat kit are now destroyed;gone :( (not the boat kit completely though :3) -sigh- someone seriously needs to bonk me in the head.  and UGH this website confuses me and is kinda not user friendly..or maybe cuz im not blog savvy... :p ill make my blog look better..dont worry ;)

I still believe in summer days
the seasons always change
and life will find a way
I'll be your harvester of light
and send it out tonight
So we can start it again.
Is love alive...? 

Life's too short...

Such a sad day today... started out my saturday by going to a funeral. so so sad. i can't describe it in words... my condolences go out to my friend and his family..i can't express how sorry i am. just hearing friends talk about memories made me cry but also feel reassured that his brother will be well remembered. i sure will remember him, though ive only had 1 chance to talk to him. i feel like God gave me the chance to at least meet and talk to simon..i dont think it was chance. i regret not knowing him better..everyone said he was such a good friend and person. i will see him one day though in Heaven and  get to talk to him and it'll be a huge party :)
 i wish i didnt miss the burial though.... :/



"And even these tears raining down on this blank page couldn't make the words grow..."

sakfjsafduhfds !

mehhh this is totally random...stuck here again blogging and facebooking while i should be doing homework... xD basically, story of my life. man, bio is so fun but hard T_T today i actually got to dissect my wormie!!! someone also kidnapped Jimmy too..so i had to get a new worm. i cant wait to dissect the frog tomorrow :) ha. ehhhh its all cold and raiiny outside..was about to go on a run :/ 
HHmmmmMmmm

it totally sucks that my dad has to take away my latop... i cant keep it in my room anymore :p actually it has been taken away since june...PooEy :( 

AIIYOoooo i MIGHT, just Might get a cell this weekend!! :D eep! but i have to pay for it of course...its pay as you go...T_T oh well, better than nothing eh?

Blogging ReViVeD!!!

Sooooss i have decided to start blogging again after seeing mei han's and tho's awesome blogs! xD yeeay! shout out to you guys! ^_* i have forgotten about mine for months.... hopefully it'll turn out okay... 

man, i have TOO much homework and school tomorrow >< township sucks in this way... only school to have school tomorrow-eesh! would help me seriously if i had the whole day to work on stuff -sigh- i have to get cracking on that darn history essay i have no clue to write about, useless english project, chinese homework, math studying, and bio studying...EGHhhh :p wow. look at me just ranting on about school... hopefully that's not what's gonna fill up my blog lol. 

Ahhhh so good to have some mickey d food todays!!! caramel frappe was thee best <333 :)

and bowling today was so fun but i wish i was better at it!! everyone seems to be good at bowling... i feel like i lack talent in general =/ i cant find something im actually GOOD at :(

Chicago and SuMmErrrrrrr!!

OH MY WORD!!! I am sooo psyched for the Chicago trip coming up in like less than 2 weeks!!! last time i checked it was months away!!! :0!! hopefully i'll be able to go for sure, since dad is mad at me (hopefully not anymore). today was also the first missions training meeting!!! SSO EXCITED!!!! and happy about a certain someone coming on the trip.... xD heheheh. but seriously! i am anticipating this trip and what it will bring into my life and my relationship with God and other teammates :D.

Daoism/ Taoism and MPACT

So.... for Ancient History, we are learning about Ancient China and discussed the philosophy of Daoism/Taoism recently. And surprisingly enough, it is related to Winnie the Pooh!! http://www.just-pooh.com/tao.html
Strange, huh? Supposedly, Winnie the Pooh, who looks at life in an optimistic and simple way, lives the life of a Daoist. It's actually kinda cool :). *sigh* If only Spodek could relate his writing to this kind of stuff...the textbook could be a little bit more interesting!!!!

Also, I have to teach a lesson based on a section in Philippians next week!! I am so nervous! :0! I'm not even ready :p. I have to prepare well this weekend! I hope I don't cry during my testimony.... I realllyyyyy hope!!!


Night!
Alice :)

 

Procrastination...from naps?

My procrastination?......naps? They are sort of linked together I guess.... One of my reasons for staying up so late is taking like 1-2 hour naps when I get home and then staying up uber late!!! >_<  It's like this whole cycle.... I wake up...from like not having enough rest, then I go to school, hopefully not trying to fall asleep in any classes, then I get home, take a longggg nap, do homework, if not distracted by other things...*cough* facebook :p, by the time I'm done... it's like 12:00 in the morning :((((. See, it's a whole, long, unhealthy cycle that I have to somehow break and then start going to bed early... but the thing is, I never feel like going to bed early, I somehow have to stay up >:(. Frustrating!!! Well, it's raining hard outside...I honestly forget the last time it was raining...hey! maybe it might snow! Yee! :] Well, I seriously need to start catching up on devotions!!!


Alice ;)

6-day weekend

WOW!!! i would never ever think that i would get a 6-day weekend.... so much snow!! :0! it's great! and boring as well :p everyone is always doing fun stuff...while i'm stuck at home... *sigh* :p i mean, i guess it's relaxing... but i don't have much to do! well, today is Chinese New Year's Eve... hope tomorrow will be fun! Tomorrow is also Valentine's Day! doesn't really pertain to me though. i just saw Dear John yesterday, and it was really good! made me cry :*[ hahah

well... hope the rest of the weekend is better! so excited that the Vancouver Winter Olympics have started!

Alice ;)

Weekend

The weekend is finally here!!! it felt so good to turn in that dreadful term paper!! first time in a long time i dont have to think about it... :) and it's snowing! which is good and bad: good: because i love snow and bad: it ruined my plans!!! :( well...hopefully i can get enough rest this weekend! :)



much love,
Alice :]

Term papers...

So it is currently 1:19 AM and what exactly am I doing this late??
The only answer: TERM PAPER and also listening to some music X]
IT IS DREADFUL!!! i have the lack of motivation to finish it... and it's due on Friday
I can't wait, can't, can't (enough can't s?) wait till Friday and this weekend! :) so many exciting things going on! :D


well....i better start working on that paper...ughhhh!!!



much love <3

Alice ;)