Just came back from a winter retreat today...one of the things that hit me on the way home was the amount of homework i have in front of me....UGH. anyhow, i completely didn't expect to go on this retreat just as didn't expect to go on Urbana, but i didn't expect to go on this retreat because of Urbana (haha if that makes sense). We stayed in such a beautiful home in the mountains....reminded me of the good ole east coast =) snoooowwww :D! i had such an phenomenal time bonding with some of the youth group people, which i would have never imagined a few months ago, first moving here. It's so strange....how i felt a few months ago compared to how i felt this weekend and today-such a difference! I have more hope in my future, especially in terms of this church. This weekend was a time of feeling God's presence before all of us. We gathered for main sessions and group huddles and had deep conversations, which i cherish so much. Even though i just met my group, i love every person within it (hahaha what would they think if i told them that?) but i really do! i have more assurance that God wants to use me to do His work..but i just don't know what yet... This morning i cried when we sang "Hungry" because i want to be that person, who comes before the Lord, empty and broken and hungry for Him. I desire so much to.


Also, I got the New American University Scholarship today!!! It's not as much as I would have hoped...but hey! i need to appreciate!! :P It's still a decent amount :) Praise the Lord ^_^